When do I get the “runners high”??? I keep expecting to be one of those people that wakes up excited about working out. Then if I missed a day of exercise I would be upset. My Step father was a body builder growing up in a house with him was interesting. He was addicted to lifting. If he missed a day at the gym he was a grouch. If I miss a day of exercise I don’t even blink an eye. Maybe a slight hint of guilt….
So am I not going to ever be the “gym rat” the “workout addict” Get the “runners high”? At this point (day 57) you would think I would know! Am I always going to struggle to motivate and get the exercises complete?
It concerns me and I am worried I won’t continue after this is over. I am taking a lot of courses on integrity lately, mostly integrity to self. It is interesting to see how much I lack this important function. In fact most people have no integrity for self. Sure you’re on a diet but those brownies look good, I said I would clean the house, but I would rather go out with friends… It is these kinds of mental battles we play with our selves’ day in and out.
Needless to say I have been working on my integrity. PCP has helped immensely in this as it was a true test. I am completely lazy and I would come up with so many reasons not to stick with a diet or work out. Even when I would play sports as a kid I would get doctors notes so I could get out of it. Why now I can complete this program? Is it the peer pressure, the money I invested? Honestly I think it is this integrity course I am taking combined with the help of my amazing group! Blogging has been awesome and I look forward to reading everyone’s blog every day.
So what is the point of this rant? I have no idea. Mostly my fear of day 91 and my lack of integrity.
I hear ya on the Day 91 fears! We don't need to be too worried.
ReplyDeleteHere's the thing.
If you've not really been into exercise, then the kind of thing we do on PCP isn't really going to win you over straight away. It's boring, repetitive, relentless, solitary. Burn fat, build muscle. Get it done. Some people thrive on this kind of thing, and others don't. It's an excellent base, but it shouldn't be the end in itself.
When I took the first Sassy Girl dance class I was tired in a totally different way to a WO. Why? Because I needed to move when the teacher told me to, there was a bit of standing and watching him, then moving. There weren't any points when I felt like I was getting warm properly. But that's the way when you learn a new dance.
You may always struggle to be motivated to do something if it isn't really alligned with your personality and style. Maybe a good post PCP exercise is something like dance, disco, hiphop, eygptian dance (this is AWESOME for toning your waist - I did it in the UK). Maybe you could find a complementary activity to diving - I did two trial tai chi classes with a bunch of middle aged creaky Japanese a way back and loved it. I thought it might be boring - but that's what I thought about yoga too and I was proven wrong with just a few classes with Patrick.
The whole integrity thing is important and I believe in it. However, it's important to (obviously) make it your own. Failure to feel excited about something that isn't really you, IS integrity, know what I mean?
And the 'feeling motivated' part is misleading really. I feel motivated around Set 5. Motivated to eat.
Have a good day Lady K.
I think it's about creating a habit, you said it yourself, you've grown up neglecting and avoiding exercise, you've created this habit of avoiding exercise in the mind. To quantify this, you've done this over years and years and your ways are set, but only for now!
ReplyDeleteYou need to undo this thinking and your approach to your well being - Create a new habit....
See, if you can understand the way you think, you can then look at changing it.. reading your post I think you're on the right track.
Make this choice, Stick to it, and you will create a new habit, a way of life and you will make it part of you...
and just a side note, best not to compare to others, as we all have our own motivations and experience... - i.e. you will find yours, and the other gym junkies have theirs..
laterz...
A bit early for these worries Kristi, just focus on the day you're on and see what happens on Day 90 when we get there!
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