I am typically very positive so please forgive me for this post. I think I just need support and to get some of this off my chest.
Day 30, I should be happy that we are 1/3 of the way done but when I look back at the month we really did have it easy. The hard part is on, and you had better believe this month is going to seem that much longer.
I have massive black and blues on my arm from skipping, tripping and then whipping (myself with the rope). It sorta looks like I am a drug addict… add the recent weight loss, are people talking about me behind my back?
I feel like I am so behind on all of the exercises. I have to break between lunges; I can’t even do a full forty without stopping once. I literally am not strong enough. Not to mention I am completely out of breath and sweating my @ss off. It isn’t like I am not trying. I thought we shouldn’t be doing these and getting winded. I get through the whole work out, just very slowly. Have I mentioned I have never done anything like this in my life exercise wise?
My divinci’s are sad, and sometimes I can’t make it through a single set without having to stop. And I can barely make it through 100 jumps without tripping or having to stop because I can’t breathe. Those that are doing them in less than 15 minutes boggle my mind. I have to now split up my jumps and my strength because I just don’t have the time in the morning. It takes about 25 minutes to get through them. I think I am getting worse at them and not better.
Finally, I am eating really well. Sticking to the diet is the easy part of this whole thing. So why did my weight revert back a few pounds? I know we fluctuate naturally but it has been like this for 4 days now. So discouraging.
This cold I have is kicking my butt. The antibiotics and cold meds they have me on put me in a perpetual state of daze. It is so hard to get out of bed, and I hardly sleep over my nonstop coughing in the middle of the night. My workouts are twice as hard now and not just because they are intense.
I want to be stronger. I want to know that when I get home and do my dip’s I will be able to, but I know I won’t. I have zero upper body strength. My push-ups are a joke. Sigh…. I guess that’s it. I promise to be more optimistic tomorrow.
A www I feel you!
ReplyDeleteI feel like that every day when I do my skips....like a kid in math class who is still struggling with basic arithmetic when the class is moving on to fractions and algebra and the like...haha
Don't worry too much about it, top priority for you now is to get better!
You're definitely not the only one getting their ass kicked by the PCP! I stagger and flail about trying to complete my sets, and usually end up in a sweaty, quivering heap. Take it one day at a time and you'll come out on top!
ReplyDeleteHey Kristi!!!
ReplyDeleteYou're doing your max and as I can read even more!!! So that's great!
About the rope, you'll get there, evryone needs its own adaptation time! And let the people talk! in just 2 months, they're gonna go "WOW!!!"
and I'm sure you'll be fit and be different with or without the same weight!
Ganbatte as they say in Japan!
PS : The blog is to let go, so dont hesitate! all negative thoughts can go here! :)
I can definitely relate to everything you're feeling right now. The skips are an ongoing challenge for me as well - some days ok, some days i'm tripping every 10 jumps. It's ok - one day at a time. Just think of the improvements you see now compared to day 1 and you'll only get better. We're all in the same boat girl - hang in there ;-)))
ReplyDeleteWe are definitely all suffering right along with you! You're are doing great. Just think back and triumph over the things you can now do but seemed impossible a month ago. I had a major fail (before I even started) on the chest dips yesterday, I could barely do three per set and even then my arms were only just bending - but hey that's still 3 more tham I could have done a month ago! I had the same reaction when I also saw I had put back ON weight. We have to keep remembering muscle is heavy! Don't worry you're definitely heading in the right direction!!!
ReplyDeletePeople will talk, bruises will heal, downs will be ups, this will be difficult, but you will be stronger, fitter and healthier...
ReplyDeleteI think you're rocking it, so keep it up..
Don't forget, you're not supposed to be "good" at any of these exercises. We want you to be near failure and tears, that's where you change your body FOR REAL. Stay positive and remember this is FUN!
ReplyDeleteThanks team! I know your all out there pushing just as hard! I am in a better place mentally now!
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